BITTERSWEET

I feel cold and hurt because  neither one of you stand beside me, I feel like screaming but no one seems to hear. My body feels torn and twisted between the two of you but no one seems to care. Why do i feel like you both want me to choose but i shouldn't need to i love you both. You both love me so dear and i can feel it but why do you always try to play me against eachother. Its how i feel for you that is why i wont and can't choose between the two. you both are my bestfriends in life and death and i will always love you both equally. I feel like you both are tearing me apart and trying to divide and conquer my feelings and love and its not the way it should be, if you love me dont tear me apart show me that you can be beside me through the dark and the light. through the storms hold me tight and never use my feelings for each of you against eachother.  

in this darkness i sit waiting in this abyss for the one that i once loved to take me away to a place of bliss.all that i have are memories at hand to keep me from going mad, and all that i wish is for you to show to keep this misery from tearing at me. But in this wicked wasteland i stand alone and my heart is in misery and pain for i know i must be punished for the crime i have commetted and for the pain i have brought onto you. But my love i promise if you were to show i will never hurt or bring you sorrow again, please save me from this never ending pain cause only you can break this never ending hell i am in. take me away from this abyss and let our love forever sore and bring us both into the bliss only you can create, only our love will take away the hell i have made in this wicked wasteland so plain.

you once put me up high on a pedestole, and taught me to fly and speak my mind, and now i feel it slipping away with time. you used to glance my way with such love and warth, now its cold and heartless. your desire for me was over powering, now you seem to just push me away further from you. I used to be your everything , now i feel i am nothing to you at all. were is the love you used to give to me and the time we used to share, has it gone away forever or can are love be spared .my love just give me a chance to show you how much i care , so we can be saved from this dispare.let me embrace you once more and give back what you have given to me. let me put you on the pedestole you once held me on and bestowe to you the love you once shared. for then i will know that you still care and the love we had will be forever spared.

My body is numb to the pain you deliver, my heart shattered by emptiness you feel it with , my mind empty from all the world around me. I walk around feeling alone and invisble from friends and loved ones, and you dont notice. You act like i'm tranparent and when i talk my voice isn't heard. I must be dead to you or maybe i'm only alive when you need me to be. Your touch makes my body cold and i can't breathe around you. I remember a time when you made me feel special and full of life but where did it go, why do i feel numb, i wanna be alive not dead. When i look outside its full of darkness i want the light again. I wanna feel the sunshine on my face the warmth in your touch agian, breathe life into me once again, not death.

You slowly turn and look at me, yours eyes locked with mine and I am forever lost in the abyss of your love

Your fingertips so warm and true softly touch my face, as you start to embrace my lips with your kiss, I am forever lost in the abyss of your love

As your lips so warm and soft pushes me farther into the abyss of your love, you pause for a moment until you deliver your fatal blow, I gaze into your eyes before I am forever yours, you say the words I am longing to hear, that pierces my soul and I am forever lost in the abyss of your love

As I lay with my soul dying in your warm embrace,I gaze into your beautiful face, and your love I forever taste, I am lost in the abyss of your love until you save me with your grace

With every kiss my heart stops, with every touch my breathe i lose, I feel my soul slowly die, and tears of joy I cry, as I am lost in the abyss of your love

On a bed of roses i lay, forever hiding from the pain, watching the darkness slowly drift away

On this bed of thorns i lay, far from the tears and the pain, loneliness not far away. On a bed of roses i lay. for a secret i display

For beauty you may see, but in darkness it may be in the shadows forever lingering

For in the light i wear a mask is all you see hiding the pain buried deep inside that only dark can bring

As the light starts to shimmer away, the mask starts to slowly fade, underneath you'll see the pain, a pain and sorrow that cannot be explained

The light is gone, the shadows are hear and you look at me differently, the beauty had faded, and the sorrow is clear, as you see the tears i hold so dear

With the mask gone you see the madness within, the bed of thorns now peirce my skin, and the blood replaces the roses so red, for its not life i live its for the dead, that fills you with dread

You see my body of stone so cold within, for it is you that have committed the sin, with your love within you placed me here on this bed of thorns for all to see

With your love you placed the pain of loneliness within me and beautiful is how i will now forever be remembered to be

The day that you arrived you saved my life, so small and frail you seem, a gift from god you would be,the days have gone by and i have watched you grow, but i think you should know, how radiant you are to me, your eyes full of life, your skin so pale and white, a gift from god you must be. In my heart you forever will be to me your my angel, with a heart so true and a soul so pure. I will forever protect you from the world so cruel and cold, cause an angel you are to me and an angel you forever will be.