BITTERSWEET

My body is numb to the pain you deliver, my heart shattered by emptiness you feel it with , my mind empty from all the world around me. I walk around feeling alone and invisble from friends and loved ones, and you dont notice. You act like i'm tranparent and when i talk my voice isn't heard. I must be dead to you or maybe i'm only alive when you need me to be. Your touch makes my body cold and i can't breathe around you. I remember a time when you made me feel special and full of life but where did it go, why do i feel numb, i wanna be alive not dead. When i look outside its full of darkness i want the light again. I wanna feel the sunshine on my face the warmth in your touch agian, breathe life into me once again, not death.